So it worked then, right?
Well, kinda, but, it’s quite easy to become addicted to “fixing” yourself, and now I had a new “enlightened” image to hold up which started feeling pretty heavy because life still had plenty of ups and downs.
I mean, I still had fights with my wife, struggles at work, stress, and anxiety that would keep me up at night feeling conflicted – wasn’t I supposed to have this all figured out by now?
So now what? This was the question I was asking myself and as a result, the last two years have been some of the most challenging and beautiful to navigate in my entire life. It’s definitely felt like a mid-life crisis, or as I like to call it a mid-life awakening, as I’ve re-explored every area of my life to find what is authentic to me if I’m not trying to hold up an image to keep others happy and have the courage to live more authentically.